My Holiday So Far: This is the Life

I am sitting with a coffee that was made for me by my mum when I got out of bed. She also offered to make me a bacon roll for breakfast, which is currently on its way. My dad is sitting with the newspaper and my wee niece is walking around, chatting away to everybody, asking to go out and play.

I am sitting with a coffee that was made for me by my mum when I got out of bed. She also offered to make me a bacon roll for breakfast, which is currently on its way. My dad is sitting with the newspaper and my wee niece is walking around, chatting away to everybody, asking to go out and play. My sister-in-law has just told her they are going out to the park. All in all, I am very happy.

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This holiday has been just what the doctor ordered. A nice, relaxing few days away with my family. I haven’t done very much and that is definitely a good thing. The biggest thing I did was play a game of poker on the Friday night, which was a long and drunken night but it was the most fun I’ve had in a while (despite being put out first). The house I am staying in is huge and has everything that we could need, including 4 bathrooms. There is a massive kitchen/dining room, with a huge 8-seater dining table. There is a big conservatory with a corner couch and recliner chair. The conservatory looks out onto a garden that is almost as big as the house, which has plenty of bushes, flowers, some pebble walkways and even a pond.

I was actually due to come home today, as I had booked a doctor’s appointment for tomorrow morning; however, my mum could see how much this holiday was helping me mentally and emotionally and she has convinced me to call the doctor in the morning to ask if we could continue with the appointment over the telephone. I hadn’t even thought of this being an option so I was really happy for my mum to have suggested it. It’s exactly what I’m going to do and I am going to make the most of my time off.

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To give you a little bit of context as to why this holiday has been so incredibly good for me and my mental health, St Andrews is a very special place to me. I have been coming here every year for 20 years. I know the place like the back of my hand and consider it to be a second home. It is a very relaxing and peaceful place, where I feel 100% safe walking around, no matter the time of day. It has several beaches, where you can take in the sea air. There are some beautiful, scenic walks that are just a joy to take. The pubs here are so nice, with some of the friendliest staff around. It is a place that my entire family loves, which means we can all spend time together here and each one of us would enjoy ourselves and be happy.

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Where is your happy place? Is there a regular holiday that you take which makes you feel the happiest? Maybe you just have a place you can visit any time you like which makes you content? I would love it if you would share them with me. Now, I’m off to continue enjoying my holiday while I can.

 

Love and Peace

That Holiday Feeling

I’m currently sat on a bus, which is taking me to St Andrews for my yearly holiday with my family. I have been particularly anxious today and have felt my jaw clenching quite often; however, since I got on this bus, I have been gradually feeling better. More calm and more relaxed. I genuinely feel like this is because I am on my way to one of my favourite places on this Earth and I know that I will soon have my feet up, without a care in the world.

 

There is just something so unique about this feeling that I get when I am going on holiday to St Andrews. I love this feeling. There are very few things about which I get excited but I am defnitely excited about this. Not just excited but also content. A feeling of familiarity.

 

This is also one of the few times that my whole family gets together and spends an extended period of time in one house, enjoying each other’s company and doing our own thing as we please but always coming back together for dinner and days out. This is a genuinely precious time for me and I want to savour every moment.

 

Love and Peace

Song of the Day: 15/08/2018

 

Today’s Song of the Day is one that really got me moving whilst I was getting ready for my holiday. I always forget how good this song actually is!

 

This is “Assassin” by my all time favourite band, “Muse”.

 

Enjoy!

 

 

Love and Peace

Song of the Day – 14/08/2018

My song of the day was going to be something else… until I realised what day it is.

 

It’s my late gran’s birthday. She would have been 86 today. I miss her, always and sometimes wish she was still here. Although, she lived a full life and did so many great things.

 

This is “Somewhere Over the Rainbow”, sung by Judy Garland in “The Wizard of Oz”. This version was the one she had requested to be played at her funeral and it chokes me up every time.

 

 

I love you, Gran.

 

Love and Peace

Today is a Good Day

I woke up today, earlier than I had planned, feeling very different to how I normally feel.

 

Usually, I wake up feeling very anxious and feeling like I am a worthless piece of crap. Today, however, I woke up feeling very calm. I wasn’t worrying about anything and I saw something that I hadn’t seen in a while: I saw the potential to make today whatever I wanted to make it. I am not a piece of crap and the things that I do matter. They matter greatly, to me and to the people who care about me. Today, I can see this very clearly and I think it is time to start taking responsibility again.

 

As I got out my laptop and set out to write a blog post, I had no idea what I wanted to write. Rather than feeling anxious and frustrated about this, I decided just to breathe and write whatever came to mind. I decided to take it back to basics and look at this platform as that which it was originally intended: something I could use to get my thoughts down on paper and clear my head. I shouldn’t worry about writing things which will be meaningful or will attract viewers. I am doing this for myself, first and foremost and if it also helps a few people along the way then that is a bonus.

 

Today will be a good day. I will make today a good day. I will practice some self-care and make sure anything that needs done around the house is done. A few weeks ago, I started doing this. I started taking responsibility for my life; however, my brain didn’t want me to do that and it sabotaged all of my attempts to get things back on track. Well, brain, I hope you haven’t forgotten about that letter I wrote to you. I have taken steps to help you get better so I hope you will be doing the same once the meds kick in. We’ve got this and I won’t stop fighting.

 

Today is a good day. I am feeling happy. I am feeling motivated. I am feeling more myself again than I have in a long time. Let’s not waste this opportunity to move forward. Let’s do this.

 

Love and Peace

My Blogging Journey: Hitting Milestones

Today is a good day. Well, apart from being tired and having to work but ‘c’est la vie!’ I have hit several milestones with my blog and am ecstatic!

 

Earlier in the week, I managed to triple my highest number of views in a single day (which was 33) by reaching 101 views on my blog for that day. This was absolutely incredible and to be quite honest, it was so unexpected. It was on the back of posting my Getting to Know Me post, which was just a short Q&A for a bit of fun in amongst all of the seriousness that my blog normally entails. I hardly expected anybody to read it, never mind getting 101 views as a result… but that’s not all.

 

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I also realised that, by reaching over 100 views in a single day, I had also smashed 500 total views since starting my blog at the beginning of June. Now, I have seen growth which was 10 times as fast, reaching 5000 views in 2 months but this was from somebody who posts on their blog and networks with the community EVERY SINGLE DAY . Hats off to them but for me, reaching 500 views in under 2 months has been such an amazing accomplishment. I never imagined that people would want to read what I had to say about my mental health journey so it has been astonishing to get the exposure that I have had, with very little networking.

 

I’m still not done! As well as reaching 500 total views, I also reached 50 WordPress followers! I think I am probably most proud of this one, as many of my followers have come from people stumbling across my blog by chance, rather than my shares on Twitter and Instagram. Whenever I would put up a new post, before I’d even had a chance to Tweet about it, I would have several views and 1 or 2 new followers.

 

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To top it all off, this morning I hit 500 followers on Twitter! This hasn’t been a massive growth, considering that I started with over 200 followers before I started by blog; however, it is still a milestone nonetheless and it has just been another achievement to add to the list this week. The Twitter blogging community has to be the nicest and most supportive community that I have ever been a part of and if it wasn’t for that then I don’t think I would still be blogging.

 

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Each one of these milestones means so much to me and I couldn’t have done it without every reader, every follower, everybody I’ve interacted with in the Twitter community and every person in my life who told me to just go for it and start a blog. I really do love and appreciate every single one of you and I am so thankful for every view, follow and share.

 

Here’s to the next 2 months!

 

Love and Peace.

Getting to Know Me

Last week, on Twitter, I asked my followers to send me questions of things that they would like to know about me. I wouldn’t exactly say that I was inundated with responses but I did receive far more than I was expecting and I am so thankful for every response. So without any further ado, here is my Getting to Know Me post!

What is your favourite flavour of Monster Munch? (@MeglioVivere)

I love this question for its simplicity and for the fact that I LOVE Monster Munch. Given the choice, I will ALWAYS pick Flamin’ Hot!

Do you enjoy reading? If so, what is your favourite book? (@Blogabtnothing1)

I actually felt quite guilty receiving this question, as I do absolutely love reading but I have not read a book in so long. I guess I shouldn’t feel so bad, as I have been reading blogs and this has kept my brain active. As for my favourite book, this would need to be Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.

What is the most dangerous/stupid thing that you remember doing as a child? (@Hypercofficial)

I did many stupid things when I was a child. I was a daydreamer so my parents had to practically beat a sense of awareness of my surrounidings into me. I think that the most dangerous and stupid thing, however, was jumping across the street when the ice cream van was driving down the road and only a couple of feet away from me. I was 4 years old and just lept across, not even thinking about what would happen if I jumped too late. I felt like a daredevil. I ran home and told my dad, I was so proud of myself. He smacked me and grounded me.

Other than The Lord of the Rings, what is your favourite fantasy series? (@ThatGlasgwGamer)

I wonder how you knew that The Lord of the Rings was my favourite fantasy series… anyway, I’ve got many favourite films and series. If it’s a case of TV series then I think my favourite is Gameof Thrones; however, if we’re talking films then it’s definitely Star Wars!

Are you working just now (Sunday) mate? (@CDeePops)

Yes. Yes, I was working.

Well, I thoroughly enjoyed that and it’s great to get another post up and have a bit of fun. Thanks for taking part and I hope your week is treating you well! I’m off to enjoy my weekend with my favourite person!

Love and Peace.