My head is spinning. I am over thinking. My heart is racing. I feel very low and I am terrified that I am going to hit rock bottom again.
I am rocking back and forth and I have absolutely no idea why. I cant get myself out of this mindset that I am inadequate and nobody likes me. I feel like I am an absolute failure in my life and I won’t get better.
I am hungry but my brain is refusing to give me the motivation to eat. I haven’t drank any water today or taken my meds. All I have done is smoke cigarettes. I want to get up, wash, eat and sort my life out but my brain is fighting me. It’s fighting hard and I don’t know if I have enough willpower to keep fighting back.
This is going to defeat me.
Hey Duncan, you know you can DM me if you need a bit of cheering up.
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Thanks you, Kate. I really appreciate it 🙂
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I mean it!
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You are wonderful! I hope you have a better day
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Awww thank you! Wonderful is such a nice word and I am flattered 🙂
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You are welcome! I enjoy seeing your posts and your RT account is always so helpful. You are appreciated
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The rawness of this post is unreal! Duncan, I worked really hard to get past years in my life that I was in and out if psych hospitals, suicide attempts and over all just being mentally incapable of functioning. Of course, this isn’t anout me but I am saying this because I want you to know that it is possible to come through this to the other side and be happy. The possibility is there and where there is possibility, there is hope to hang on to.
I’m here if you ever need to talk.
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Thank you, I really appreciate it. I’m glad you can relate to it and it makes me feel better to see someone who has pulled through to the other side.
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Please remember that I am hear to listen if you need anything
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