One Small Step for a Beard…

Well, I’ve made another step towards managing my mental health. It’s not an easy one and I’m feeling very anxious about seeing it through: I made an appointment with my doctor.

This has been something that I’ve tried to do in the past but there was always something stopping it from happening; whether it was no appointments being available or my anxiety stopping me from pursuing it. I’ve generally been anxious about seeing my doctor recently, anyway. I don’t know why but I have a feeling it’s an extension of how I’ve been feeling the last couple of years, with my sudden change from being a happy-go-lucky guy to being a twisted, depressed sack of meat and bones.

I’ve never been great at taking medication. I think that’s because I haven’t been ill very often in my life and my body can generally fight off anything that’s thrown at it. Upon reflection, my anxiety in this particular situation may stem from that: knowing that there’s a high probability my doctor will prescribe anti-depressants. I have heard both good and bad things about them but to me they are quite scary. Not something I ever thought I would need to use.

This step that I took today in booking the appointment is a small one in the grand scheme of things. Although, it is a giant leap in terms of my progress. Here’s hoping that it helps.

Love and Peace.

5 thoughts on “One Small Step for a Beard…

  1. ruthinrevolt says:

    Just wanted to say how proud I am that you took this step. Truthfully, I don’t think you’ll regret it but I remember being in the same place a couple of months ago, and it seems really daunting. Just try and be honest about what you’re going through. Mind has a campaign on their website with tips about how to discuss your mental health with your GP if you need a hand to prepare.

    As for anti-depressants, I never envisioned needing them, either, and I fought against it internally for quite a while before I made my appointment. However, they made such a huge difference to me within a matter of weeks and I’m glad I went through with it. There can be side-effects and they affect everybody differently and I’m very fortunate that I was lucky. The thing to know is there are different variations so if the first ones aren’t right for you, try to discuss alternatives with your GP.

    Also, if you really don’t want to take anti-depressants, GPs usually give you the option to pick between them and speaking to a counsellor. You can also opt for both, which is what I did. Waiting lists for counsellors can be long, and I found anti-depressants helped ease my symptoms in the meantime until I could get in to see somebody.

    You’ve absolutely done the right thing.


    1. hadunkan says:

      So much love for this reply. Genuinely, it hit me right in the feels that you would take the time to write such a thoughtful and encouraging reply. Thank you, Ruth. I will visit the Mind website before my appointment. I have already thought a lot about anti-depressants and I’m still not sure whether or not I want to try them but it is getting to a point where I will need to seriously consider it.

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  2. chatterboxchloe says:

    You took a really big step towards recovery today, and you should really be proud of yourself. I understand that it makes you feel anxious, I was once in your shoes. But trust me, you will feel better after you’ve visited your doctor. Even if he prescribes anti-depressants, that isn’t necessarily a bad thing. They can really help you, even with your anxiety. At least that’s how it worked for me. I’m not saying that your anxiety will completely disappear, no, but it will help you cope with it better. You are incredibly strong for taking the step to go to your doctor. I hope it all turns out well.

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