Over Thinking

This is not something that I have done all of my life but I have not been able to pin point exactly when it was that I started doing it. I am sure there must have been some sort of trigger that caused me to start over thinking and ever since then, it has been the bane of my life. It affects relationships, ruins your day and makes you feel like you are the most annoying, pathetic piece of shit on the planet.

 

I might over think about the food I have left until pay-day. I might over think about a party that I am supposed to be attending and the people who will be there (although I think that may tie in a little better with social anxiety, it still involves over thinking).  I might over think when somebody I care about doesn’t reply to my messages; or worse, changes the way they speak to me. There are many things that might cause my brain to go into an endless, obsessive cycle of over thinking and it is very difficult to drag myself out of that cycle. It usually needs to be somebody else who pulls me out.

 

One of the most annoying things about my over thinking is that I am a very logical and pragmatic person. This means that, when I am over thinking, I can see how stupid I am being but I can’t stop myself. It makes me feel weak, needy and (probably most frustrating) like I am attention seeking. Of course, none of these things are true about me and I can see that when I have a clear head; however, when my head isn’t clear and all I can see is that one thing which is making me over think, I am all of these things. This can ruin relationships quicker than almost anything else. If I need somebody else to pull me out of the vicious cycle, more often than not, it will come in the form of reassurance. Reassurance that I’m not being an idiot, reassurance that everything is fine and you’re not annoyed with me, reassurance that nobody at the party will start anything with you, reassurance that I haven’t just said something to upset you, etc., etc. When somebody needs constant reassurance, they can become a burden. They can become somebody who everybody else wants to avoid. They can go from being someone you once loved and admired to being someone who is a chore and a drain on your energy. That is a tough thing to handle and I know it. Before I started struggling with anxiety and over thinking, I had friends who were exactly like this and I handled it. I handled it very well. I made sure that I was there for them and I made sure that they knew I understood (even though I had no idea that I couldn’t possibly fully understand until I had actually experienced it myself). I think one of the reasons I get so anxious about my over thinking is because I know what it is like to deal with somebody like that. I put myself in other people’s shoes and worry that they will see me as a burden. Of course, that just adds to the anxiety and makes me over think even more. The vicious cycle.

 

Over thinking may be an extension of anxiety, which means that the tried and tested grounding techniques that I have come to know should help bring myself out of my own head. I’ll be honest, I haven’t tried it before so I will keep it in mind and hopefully remember them the next time my brain goes off on one. In the meantime, I guess I will just keep looking for pragmatic ways to reduce the amount of time that I spend over thinking. I suppose I may benefit from hindsight, looking back on previous times and analysing the situations, looking for things in those situations that I could learn from and that could help me to reassure myself; or maybe analysing the situations will just make me feel worse. I won’t know until I try.

 

Love and Peace.

Author: Tales of A Bearded Man

I am a mental health blogger, creating content like articles and videos in order to help people cope with things like depression and anxiety. My content is focused mainly around my own struggles and features ways that I personally have managed to cope. I hope that my hints and tips will inspire and help others to lead healthier lives.

6 thoughts on “Over Thinking”

  1. I can relate to every word of this! I really do think the battle inside your head between what’s logical and what’s not is so difficult to deal with some days, and it’s what I find the hardest. I wish I had a magical solution but I haven’t figured it out yet (I usually attempt to distract myself which works approximately 1 time out of 10) so I just wanted you to know, at the very least, you’re not alone.

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    1. Thank you, Ruth! Honestly, that is what I find the hardest too. I often find myself over thinking about the silliest of things and it is so frustrating. I used to think that half the battle was knowing that you are over thinking but it turns out that doesn’t always help.

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