I am quite scared of this post coming across as a cliché, as I realised when thinking about the topic that it is pretty cheesy and probably over done, to an extent. Well, especially when it comes to motivational speeches and finding your fulfilment in life.
The truth is, I was never really a fan of motivational speeches, articles or books. I can’t really put my finger on the reason why, looking back on it. There was just something about them that made my brain shut down. I guess we all have those things that we tend to avoid. Although, if I were to hazard a guess as to the reason I wasn’t fond of them, it may be that I never thought I would have any use for them. Here we go: my naivety shining through again. It makes me cringe how naive I used to be, while at the same time thinking I was so right and so down to earth. Just like my naive thoughts that I would never have issues with mental health. I would go back and slap myself if I had a time machine.
I watched a lot of motivational videos whenever I felt lost during spells of depression. They came from a lot of different sources but the majority of the speeches in the videos were by one Dr. Jordan B. Peterson. You may have heard of him, given the controversy that recently surrounded his YouTube videos and TV interviews; however, the videos I am referring to were recorded before all of that and most of them were excerpts from his psychology lectures at the University of Toronto. It makes sense that he should know about mental illness and how to combat it and cope with it psychologically. A lot of the things he said made sense, including “get your life in order“.
If you’ve read my earlier posts, you’ll know that it was bringing order to my life that really helped me to begin to cope with my mental health issues. As part of this process of finding and bringing order to my life, I realised very quickly that my job was not helping me at all. I was and still am completely miserable at my job. I needed to find another one, another career path. Not just any other but one which would bring me fulfilment and make me happy. Well, I’ve known call centre work and customer service all of my adult life; what else was there for me to do? It seemed like such a daunting task, to come up with something that I could do instead of my current job. Most other things that I thought of were in some way linked, be they office jobs or other retail or customer service jobs. No, no, no, that’s not what I wanted. I thought I had hit a brick wall, when it suddenly hit me: I had been training staff a few months prior, in a classroom environment, where I had creative control over how each lesson/module would be taught and I was very happy during this time. Of course, the happiness was short lived, as I was only doing it for 6 weeks and I got barely so much as a thank you when I finished. I think the fact that it ended on such a sudden and negative note is what made me forget about it when considering a new career but there it was. There was the answer: I should become a teacher. It was so obvious that I was practically kicking myself when I figured it out.
Since I found the answer, I have been working my new goal of teaching into my daily routine. I very quickly decided that I didn’t want to be a school teacher, which actually makes my goal a lot easier to reach. To be a college lecturer, I would only need the qualification that I would be teaching and I happen to have an HND. Perfect. My dad is a college lecturer so I made some time so that we could sit together and work on my CV. Everything seemed to be falling together pretty nicely. That pretty much brings us up to the present day and it’s actually getting to be quite scary. I’m almost at a point where I can start applying for lecturing jobs and jobs within colleges. It’s okay, though, as it’s an amazing kind of scary. One which is driving me to do the best that I can for myself. I know that I will be able to handle each step along the way. I have faith in myself and it has been a long time since I’ve been able to say that honestly.
I have found my path. If you haven’t already, you should go out and find yours. You will find your answer somewhere, I promise. But to find it, you need to look for it. Very few people in this world stumble into their dream career so don’t wait for that to happen and hope for the best. Get your life in order and find whatever makes you feel fulfilled and happy. I haven’t finished my journey to getting my dream career but I’ll tell you this: I’m almost there and I already feel happier than I have been in a long time.
Love and Peace.